Usually I hesitate to call plans at this time of year resolutions. I prefer to think of them simply as suggestions or vague guidelines but, no, this year they are most firmly resolutions! Christmas has been brilliant but I am utterly, utterly exhausted. I’ve got various health issues (mainly related to my caesarean or triggered by tiredness), I haven’t been looking after myself and it turns out that now I’m in my mid/late thirties I can’t get away with that anymore. I’ve decided to go with 15 resolutions/goals as it is 2015. Some are large, some small, some concrete, some more vague and difficult to track. I won’t post about them all in one go. Here are the goals that I am putting under the heading of ‘Personal’:
1. Health. I’ve developed a skin condition that apparently won’t go away, it will just need to be managed from now on. At the moment it looks like red marks on my face (these can easily be hidden with make up) and what looks like eczema around my eyes (painful and looks much worse/can’t really put make-up on it). Obviously I’m not particularly happy about this and am going to be hassling my doctor about this and doing whatever I can to improve it. My doctor says this was almost certainly brought on by a combination of cold weather, being run down and over tired. No surprises there then! Post caesarean, I still have to take painkillers after only a moderate amount of activity nearly a year after the event. For example, I stood for two hours helping out at a stall last month and consequently had to take painkillers to get through the next 24/36 hours. It has put me off doing any sort of exercise and I am the most unfit I have ever been in my life. I am also having far too many twinges and aches and pains etc for my age and I think I really need to be exercising again. I need to get some medical advice on how to do this. Do I avoid certain things? Do I do them anyway and just accept I ahve to take a lot of painkillers? Would some kind of physio help? I have no idea. I’m fed up of the doctors sending my home and saying it will get better eventually. Life has to go on. In short, I’d like to improve my fitness. I HAVE to get more sleep. It is so hard, picking between getting essential things done, having some down time with husband, doing something for myself or getting some sleep. But now, judging my the state of my face, sleep is going to have to win, at least the majority of the time for the foreseeable future. We’ve been so ill this winter, mainly because girlie goes to school 5 days a week, picks up every virus going and then brings it home and then the rest of us get it too. At least 2 out of 4 of us have been ill consistently now for the last 3 months. And my two don’t sleep well when they’re ill which means even less sleep for me than usual. Sleep must win in 2015! Also I have dental work that needs doing…
2. Weight. I managed to lose all of the baby weight this year (let’s ignore what damage the festive period will have done to this. I’m not weighing myself for at least another two weeks)! It feels pretty good to have actually done it as weight loss is one of those resolutions that can go on and on and on without ever getting ‘done’. I’ve still got a stone (14 pounds) to lose to get back to my pre-first pregnancy weight but it feels good to be on the right track. And it feels great to have lost almost 4 stone!
3. Self care/grooming. So, with the skin on parts of my face going kaput i can’t really pamper myself the way I would usually if I were feeling a bit rough around the edges. However, I can still make an effort to look after the rest of my skin and I could definitely do with paying a bit more attention to my nails. I also need to get my hair cut more regularly. For the last five years I’ve averaged a trim every 6 months. I had quite a lot cut off but it needs doing again as it is less, sharp long bob and more dull shoulder length blah blah again. If the skin on my face is less than great then I need to make up for it elsewhere! Also my hairdresser only charges me £10 a trim including tip and she is brilliant. I know. I am seriously lucky.
4. Wardrobe By the end of the year I resolve to have a great, capsule (ish) wardrobe. I’m not doing much on this until I’ve lost around 7 pounds as that will put me back in my usual dress size. In 2014 I spent less than £20 on clothes. I was determined not to buy stuff that wouldn’t be hanging around long due to losing weight. I want to build my wardrobe back up gain. I’ll never go back to clothes shopping every month but I do want a lovely collection of things than I can add to from time to time and that will last me well. I know some people don’t really mind what they wear and that’s great but I’m not one of them. I’ve hated the way I’ve had to dress over the last few years due to my crazy weight gain over two pregnancies or having to spend money on other things. I’ll be shaking my budget upside down by the ankles to make this happen!
5. Personal projects and hobbies. Things like this blog and other little writing projects I used to have on the go have had to take a back seat over the last couple of years. This is one of my vaguer resolutions as mostly it will only be for when I’ve got time – I’m not putting down any concrete goals – just reminding myself of what I can do when there is a window of opportunity! And those are my personal resolutions for 2015. I’ll be back tomorrow with the next instalment!